Found

Today I read Deut. 5 and I keep listening to the Found by Hillsong United. I must remember that my identity is found in Him, who upholds me by His right hand. I am His, there is no one like Him. I don´t think there is a morning where I am not scared of the control which I can not possess. Nature, God is it´s own force, and the sun wakes me every day, so far away. I am made from dust and thrust into a herd, a number, to try and uphold what is in my heart, rather than what is in my flesh. But, can I really be a number when I am chosen by God and yet at the same burdened by the mass rejection of God, whom loves them more than they could ever understand, a love that penetrates our soul that demands such a love? There is an ancient, eternal love between the maker and His child, children of I Am.
I keep being reminded of how the silent hebraic letters in Yahweh signify that the unspeakable name of God is said in every breath we take, meaning that we require Him, our unconsciousness calls for Him. Only God could allow such a degree of selfishness that we pursue, in order to bring to such a point of surrender where we can catch a glimpse of His love. Not to cloy, but perhaps this can be seen when we witness a shooting star and see for a moment the power and vastness of His love.

A prayer of rememberance

God,
When will I see the reason for the reflection of my failure as a drawing to you? When will I realize that there is no strength, will nor hope in my hands. Without your Spirit, I remain dead. Please remind me, let me surrender, will you break me and keep my lil´train steady? Will you allow me to keep on track? Will you bring me back to you, forever? I need you, yes, obvious, but not convincing, right? I don´t want to constantly worry, I want to fly free, under you wings oh, God. Let me fly, reign in me.
Today I was spoken to by a man from Punai, India. He spoke to us about the need of ministry in India. God, let me pray everyday for these people, put this on my heart, but with hope and vision and ability. Let me praise you for my taletns, let me believe that I can move my friends, that I can love people. Give me this love and a gregorious rsuit. Please strengthen me, make me alive. Let me run to you, give me your Word every day. Let me not feel stagnent, let me feel that the storm inside my , my potential, is being fulfilled sufficiently!!!! You are her, alive, with me ! Open my eyes, let me look ahead, forgetting what is behind on towards the goal for the prize of the high call of God in Jesus Christ. Amen.

First Day of Simple Thoughts

Maybe I could spare a couple minutes a day writing out my thoughts. Something to learn from my time on earth. Today I listen to a sermon from rockharbor.org. that talks about putting the kingdom of God into our lives, making moments where His kingdom burst into out reality. There were small moments, such as the helping of a neighbor, considering a shop-lifters problems and the forgiving of a molesting brother. Then parts of the sermon on the mount were read and then a reflection of what it meant to lose your life. Jesus wasn´t talking about the losing the good things, happiness, but pride power status control instead. There is a human tendency to keep yourself in check about the status of your life, your appearance, your finances. Ask if maintanence meant complete control, like you grew a seed between your hands.
Another realization that I hand today was that it´s very difficult for me to seperate out my day. For example, work on an essay while waiting for someone to pick me up. That is what I need to learn how to do. God, make me efficient, so that I may use some of my free time to help others. Make my desires pure.